day 630. why cant i move on?
alright. well six hundred and thirty days ago i met a boy. and when i met that boy i was a lot more immature and my hair was lighter than now. i hadnt really experienced life until i met him. we dated for sixty days. and during those sixty days i lost my virginity and he lost his. on the sixtieth day he broke up with me. and i thought that would be the end. it took me a little while to get over it. but i eventually did. so we hated each other. for a good year. to the day in fact. it was a childish way to deal with it but we hated each other. for three hundred and sixty five days. and then on the three hundred and sixtieth day he apologized. for all the hating for all the bullying and for breaking my heart. i didnt love him but we became fast friends again. i started to neglect everyone else for him. eventually i realized id fallen in love again. around about day four hundred and fifty five we started talking about us. as a couple. he had a girlfriend and he still has her. in the following days wed talk about a future and sex and all of that. i met a boy in the following days. and we went out. but the first boy suggested we get together. i couldnt resist. about day four hundred and eighty five we got together. we hooked up i didnt see him for fourteen days and in that time hed gotten with another girl. i was hurt but i thought id be okay. i broke it off with my boyfriend not because i felt guilty for cheating. but because i felt guilty for not feeling guilty. eventually i just went back to the first boy. because he was just all i had to fall back on. a month or two later i met a boy a raver. we clicked it was amazing. he made me feel like boy one never did. but all boy one could talk about was the age gap and how much he hated him. just like he did with the boy before raver boy. soon enough raver boy broke it off with me. and i went straight back to boy one. boy one still having a girlfriend all this time. in the meantime id become great friends with the other girl hed gotten with. and im not straight or gay. im not even bisexual. i really dont identify. and i dated her eventually. and even boy one found problems with girl. one of my friends straight girl put foward the suggestion: maybe he picks at them because hes still in love with you. now boy one is a boy that frequently says admitting you love someone is admitting defeat. and after a week well. a week and a day now. girl broke up with me. it was mutual. i have unresolved feelings with boy one. so thats my story. its day six hundred and thirty. i cant get over him. what do you think? does he love me? i should probably add something about his girlfriend too. him and his girlfriend have been going out for a year. shes having sex with him. they never talk ive never seen them talk. ive never seen him call her. anything like that. i think after about a month the relationship died? and she just doesnt care anymore. to quote him its like weve been married for a thousand years. i just. dont feel it anymore. but i dont want her to hurt herself if i broke it off. im in it for the sex to be honest.
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