I tried gay sex...Help?
I am a 21 yr old college male who dateshas sex and is attracted to women. Recently I went through a dry spell . I then started to watch alot of porn after awhile I got bored and came across some gay porn. After watching gay porn I became so aroused and started to make a routine of it. Once i got bored with the porn I proceeded to look for gay sex online. I met a guy who was about 28 and graduated from Cornell and was in the same frat as I am in now. After texting/talking he wanted to have sex with me I tried it and absolutely Hated it like I went some and scrubbed my mouth and body with soap and alcohol. When Im with a girl I never feel that way I normally have this sensation to go multiple times and it just feels so good and on the gay porn it looked the same but IT WAS NOT. After sleeping with the guy he continued to text me..I ignored. Until one day I recieved an enail from him stating that he would pay me 2500 to have sex with him. Did I mention he was loaded I then figured since I did it for free last time y not do it fo cash so I agreed. I also begin to psych myself out thinking that maybe I did like gay sex I was just nervous the first time. When I got to the hotel he ravaged me and I felt so gross I just wanted the whole thing to be over..He told me he wante me to fuck him but when I tried my penis somehow was not feeling it and would not get an erection so he tried to suck me off and that wouldnt work. And it wasnt like he was unattractive I thought he was a pretty good looking guy and he was really ripped all of which I THOUGHT I would like. I could sense his frustration he then turned me over and began to stuff his finger up my A. I felt very sick and scared at the same time and was shaking he kept grabbing me by the neck and telling me to relax. Then he f me and continued to f me harder and told me to take it . Thats when I decided I would NEVER have gay sex again and that I didnt like men it just felt weird our penises rubbing together. When Im with a girl its feels so right and so good as I caress her soft body. After sex he paid me the money and told me next time to expect way more money next time and on top of that he gave me another 1000 as an Xmas gift. What should I do he is a big top level exec who works for Exxon Mobile and he told he he could help me out when I graduated college and that he would give me the world.. Ive never had money and now he is offering to pay for my school and put me in a nice condo downtown. and even though I hated the thought of being with him I love the finally having nice things and lots of money Im confused.. Am I gay? . Will I be able to go back to having sex with women after knowing what Ive done in the back of my head. Y is it I get off to porn and when it comes to sex and being intimate with a man I hate it help By the way we HAVE hung out before just having sex he lives about 45 min away from me he weve grabbed a bite to eat with each other and everything he just seems like a one of my normal dude friends thats why I was comfortable.He is not out he told me that could jeopardize his career when Im around his friends he introduces me as a young mentee that he met at a career fair. I feel like he is paying me to be quite tooand thats fine with me because I never want any one to know what I did. I know I have to stop but at the same time I LOVE nice sh.. I know this make me look like a ho and I have a girl now and she loves it when I buy her sh. I just bought her a diamond tennis bracelet for Xmas and she like worships me. But after visiting my home and seeing the car I drive she keeps asking me where I got the money. I told her I used my refund money from school but I think she thinks Im a drug dealer. FML
Asked by Charles about Lesbian Gay Bisexual and Transgendered
Watching something and doing something are two very different things. You really should have mad absolutely sure you wanted to have sex with him the first time. If you hated it both times dont go back anymore.
Answered by Octava Espada, Szayel Apporo Granz
the REASON it feel bad is cuz is not natural n stop wat ur doing is prostitution
Answered by AdeL
Clearly youre not gay. But I say take the money honey. You never know when an opportunity like this is gonna come back round.
Answered by Lei
You like guys but dont like gay sex.
Answered by .
The guy has definitely got a problem. Youre definitely not gay or bisexual since you didnt like it. I think you were brave to experiment a little but now that you are clear about it you dont need anymore of it. You have to cut the guy off and tell him that you are not interested. Even if its good money you shouldnt accept it. You will have to give him sex in exchange and youll know later how you got that money and be grossed out.
Answered by Mandarin
Damn... youre in some deep hit. Learn to like anal sex if you like the money and benefits. It feels good after a while.
Answered by sean
1. if you disliked gay sex that much youre not gay 2. dont be a prostitute have some selfrespect guy geez
Answered by Mackie JcDonald -- Reinstated
Two things are clear: First you are clearly not gay. Second you are clearly greedy/materialistic.
Answered by Clint
u r not gay dont ever ever try it again. money nice things u can have it later but some stuffs if it gone it will never come back good luck :
Answered by pretty girl :)
I dont believe one bit of this crap. If the guy is educated attractive and loaded with money he doesnt have to pay some twit for sex. Nice try but no sell.
Answered by Maisy
Well it doesnt seem like youre gay but you most certainly are a whore which is much much worse.
Answered by Caleb
YOU JUST GOT PIMPED
Answered by Lulz
You need time try going on a date with him instead of sleeping with him. Sex should be out of love not lust or prostitution. Dont give up on him he sounds nice and if you still dont feel right with him after dating him leave him.
Answered by ?
it seems like you might have your mind made up already. u know ur not gay but for the love of money ur willing to do it. ethically its not right but in ur case money trumps ethics. i know what it can b like to not have money and then come into it it is very addictive. if u can stand what u r doing and u urself can b fine with it to hell with what other people think. best of luck to u.
Answered by just here to say